When Natalie Scott sat down to write her memoir, she wanted her daughter’s life to have a lasting impact.
Scott’s book, “The Sun Will Rise,” was published earlier this summer and is available online through WestBow Press and Amazon, or locally at the Barnes & Noble University of Delaware Bookstore on Main Street and Hockessin BookShelf.
Scott, a Newark native and writer for Easterseals Delaware & Maryland’s Eastern Shore, writes in the book about her pregnancy with her and her husband’s first child, Eleanora. Born in 2011, Eleanora only lived for five days.
“I wanted to share my story so other people know they are not alone in losing a child and it shouldn’t be a taboo thing to talk about,” she said. “And I’ve always, always talked about Eleanora.”
Scott explained that when she was 27, she woke up one day feeling like she was ready to have a baby. Though her husband took a little more time, the couple eventually decided to start a family.
Her pregnancy went smoothly – minus some morning sickness – and she gave birth to Eleanora full-term, she said.
However, five days after she was born, Eleanora turned yellow, and they rushed her to the emergency room.
“I was holding her and she was fine one minute and, what felt like the next minute but was like an hour later, she was gone,” Scott said, adding that an autopsy was inconclusive on the cause of death.
Scott said that after the couple lost Eleanora, she felt isolated and was drawn to write about her experience.
“When I lost her, I had this feeling that I needed to write her story and share it with the world so that her impact wasn’t just five days,” she said, adding, “I wanted other people to know that they’re not alone in the loss. Because when I lost Eleanora, it was very isolating.”
When Scott began writing, she didn’t quite know what she wanted the final product to be, other than sharing her own story. Over the years, the emotional task of writing about the experience, along with work and caring for her two younger children – Pierce, 7, and Everett, 5 – would lead to her taking breaks from the manuscript.
As she would write, she would take the pieces of inspiration that came through poetry or songs on the radio.
“I included some of those in there. So I would use what inspired me in life as it was going,” she said. “I really feel like it was meant to take that amount of time because even in the last couple of months, I added stuff that I wouldn’t have had I published right away. And I also have years of experience. Eleanora is 8 now.”
Through the book, Scott hopes to help others feel hope.
“Hope for so many things – not just to have another baby, because that doesn’t always happen for people. That’s my story, but that’s not everyone else’s,” she said. “But I want them to have hope that their baby has a purpose. And I want them to know that there are other people out there. I want them to feel camaraderie with me and other readers and other people.”
She added that she hopes the book will give solace to anyone dealing with loss, not just those who have lost a child.
“I just want people to know they’re not alone,” she said.